Hello everybody! Welcome to my column.
Each month I will draw a Major Arcana tarot card which represents one of many possible paths to follow. Major Arcana cards represent the archetypical themes of life, presenting the overall possible experiences.
Deck: Mermaid Tarot By Leeza Robertson Illustrations by Julie
Card: #2 The High Priestess
The column for me this month was pretty tough. Tough enough that I am barely making it in even with an extended deadline. When I first began to write these columns I was still developing the trust in myself to deliver the message needed with the “perfect card.” I would set all my things up, make sure I centered and shuffled the Major Arcanas until the card revealed itself. As my trust and abilities in writing this column grew, the column would “just come to me.” I could be out for a walk, or in a stretching class and suddenly I would have the outline in my head crystal clear and a picture of which card to submit with it. This time, neither seemed “appropriate.” I waited and “searched” for the inspired idea to come to me. As the deadline grew closer, I considered shuffling and pulling, even grabbing the book that goes along with this mermaid deck and opening to a random page. Then, recently, during a powerful and healing conversation filled with perspectives and growth for myself, my partner suddenly asks me, “So which card is “the reader” of the deck? Which card goes with this lesson?” A flash in my mind of the card appears. I start being able to draw certain conclusions and ideas for an outline, but still felt stuck with the overall premise. So, I continued to look externally for the signs and messages I was meant to write about. It brought me to another card that had similarities and I felt even more split. Suddenly, the column was like a tennis ball in my brain; back and forth the column bounced between the two cards, thinking and analyzing over which direction to go. It is this experience that lead me to The High Priestess.
The High Priestess is the all powerful Intuition. She is the Feminine and the Masculine, the light and the dark, up and down, in and out. She is the core of LIVING intuitively, not just having awareness of, or using it sometimes. She is the wisdom from which we have intuitive ideas and balance them with our brains for actionable steps. She is as high up and as deep as it gets internally. She is the knowledge we have when listening to ourselves through and through. Maybe you have fallen into a routine of rowing for your cardio workout, but one morning your body hesitates at the thought, so you listen and suddenly have the idea of trying something different and you walk straight to an elliptical machine and do an intense programmed workout that leaves you feeling invigorated, strong and even joyful! Perhaps you’ve been reading a book about shame and vulnerability to better understand your subconscious presets when you go to do your daily reading and you feel as though you need a break. You intuitively realize that the heavy shadow work that has been happening while reading, needs to take a rest, and you see yourself reach for a different book, even though the “perfectionist” and “completionism” part of your logical brain wants to finish the book now, you feel the relief as you decide to listen to what your mind and spirit really needs; knowing that the book will still be there when its time to pick it back up. The High Priestess is the Soul living intuitively through mind, body, and spirit.
To live in the core of intuition, it takes persistence and focus. These words can seem so incredibly simple, yet we can still miss them by a mile. Sometimes we forget to look at them with a new perspective. During the previously mentioned conversation, I turned to my partner and said, “Thank you for being so patient with me” He turned to me, and with an assured ease replied, “You don’t have to thank me, it doesn’t take patience to be with you.” My jaw dropped and as my mind completely blew open, I said “What? What does that mean?” He said, “It does not take patience to be with you, it just takes persistence and focus.” Now in this moment, I could feel my mind swirling in all directions, how could he say this? Having the awareness of knowing that he is a projected reflection of my own love, I began to question myself. “It doesn’t take patience?” Patience is all I have been really focusing on with the way I love myself, and others, thinking that is what got me to where I am now! I thought I needed patience with my growth, or what I see at setbacks, with my healing, with my moods, and even patience with my mind. When I really started diving deep into all of my accomplishments, my growth, healing and even my comfort zones, I realized he was absolutely right. The tunnel vision with which I saw loving myself was blown completely open. I showed persistence and focus in each step I took.
The High Priestess living for me has not been “learning patience” but learning to to be persistent and focused in disengaging my continuously over-thinking brain and stepping into my intuitive natural state and trusting it to move me forward.
This month I ask you to take some time and ask yourself how your mind works. How do your actions work? What is it that you are doing from moment to moment? Are you “thinking” your way into a spiral of decisions, or are you trusting yourself with what feels right? Are you ready to step into your High Priestess Living and allow your logical brain and your intuitive nature to balance each other in everything you do? I know that you are. It’s why you are here. It's why you are reading this column right now, because your strength and inner knowledge has led you to dive even deeper.
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